For my latest vlog, I revisited a survey that I filled out and posted to Livejournal when I was 15. I feel like most people in their twenties have done this at some point. These surveys were huge back in the Myspace days and even the early Facebook days. I had fun reading my answers to the silly questions and reflecting on how differently I view things now. Check out the video below:
I was one of those teenagers who pretty much hated everything. I was kind of pretentious without really realizing it. I hated the social aspect of school. I hated going places and being forced to interact with people. I didn’t like trying new things and wasn’t open to them. I was incredibly close-minded toward a lot of things and it probably made me a downer of a person to be around.
That’s not to say that I was always a bummer to be around. I did have a few friends who I had fun with and I loved babysitting my nieces and playing with them. But… I generally wasn’t very open to living life to its fullest.
I assumed that all the “popular” kids at school were jerks just because of their status. Looking back, while I acknowledge that there were quite a few jerks in that crowd, I have to admit that I judged a lot of them too harshly. Similarly, I didn’t want to hang out with the “geeks” or whatever we called the unpopular kids in school because I didn’t want to be associated with that group either. It was a weird thing, but it led to me basically closing myself off from most kids my own age.
Almost my entire Livejournal is me ranting about this or that. It was all so negative. It kind of bummed me out a little bit. I like to think that I’m a pretty happy person now and that I’ve been enjoying life over the last several years. I have opened my mind to trying new things (like going to concerts and riding roller coasters — two things that my teenage self was not interested in doing) and I’ve stopped judging people for who I think they are before I get to know them.
I’m sure a lot of this just comes with age, but it makes me wish that I’d known just how bitter and pessimistic I was back then. I wish I could get a do-over and relive those years with the mentality that I carry now.
I hope my nieces — who are scarily entering their teenage years — don’t hang out on the sidelines of life like I did. I don’t want them to make crazy mistakes either, of course, but I hope they have a bit more fun with life than I did when I was their age.
That’s all I have to say for today, I guess. Except for this: why were mirror pics such a big thing in the mid-2000s? I have so many of these and it’s embarrassing.