Yet again, I find myself presented with a bend in the road of life.
At this point, however, I believe myself to be fully equipped to handle anything life throws at me with a positive attitude and self-assurance that things will, after all, work out.
Last night, while engaging in a benign discussion with my roommate, Cassandra, I learned of her sudden plans to move home. In an attempt to save money, Cassandra feels like living at home will be better for her at this point in her life. She wants to go back to college, raise her GPA, and eventually do something better with her life. All very admirable things.
About nine months ago, this same problem arose for Hollie and me. Our first roommate, Cheyenne, decided to leave us in order to live with her boyfriend and to be closer to her workplace. Last year’s version of Cherie handled the situation much differently. I remember being at work and calling my then-boyfriend John and absolutely flipping out – probably scaring him a little as he tried to calm me down from his dorm in Bluefield. I remember all the angry text messages sent back and forth between me and Hollie. We were unable to fathom how this could happen to us. I even became extremely short and rude with a regular customer who asked me if it was “really that bad.” To which I, nearly in tears, replied that yes, it was.
This year, however, I find myself to be handling the same situation in a completely different way. Maybe part of it goes back to my New Year’s Resolution to be an overall happier person. Perhaps I’ve just matured to the point that little hiccups no longer bother me. Whatever it is, I’m at peace. And being at peace really makes life a lot easier. Necessary change becomes a lot less of a headache to implement.
So I placed some ads. Craigslist. Roomster. Facebook Marketplace. I advertised on Twitter and on my status on Facebook. So far, the future looks bright. I’ve received emails from two girls who seem like they could be great matches for me and Hollie.
So I’m going to keep this attitude. As is life, situations that affect me are often beyond my control. I think that was my problem before. I absolutely hated and never understood why I could only control but so much of my destiny. Various hurdles over the past year have given me the wisdom to realize that life is going to be like that. I must live in this life with the company of others. Sometimes I’ll be disappointed. Sometimes my heart will break. But unless I want to completely shut out every human contact, I have to be prepared for the low points. Otherwise, I’ll never have any highs.